Worry

Hello all.  I just turned on the wave machine and have also just finished reading a couple of how to quit worrying web articles.  My New Years Resolution is to become "Care Free".  I've been tending away from that over the last 15 or more years of my life, and I need to right my ship.

  What has brought this to the fore this morning is what happened while trying to sleep last night.  I slept pretty well but after waking about 5AM, I kept having thoughts/dreams that were worries.  I still dream of teaching and failing at that.  I dream of working at the post office and the pressures that were part of that job.  I thought,"These are just dreams and mean nothing; Why can't I have some pleasant dreams?" The one article I read made the point that we are conditioned to worry by society.
One needs to worry about ones future, grades, health etc.  It's not responsible to be care free.  Someone has to worry about things, so do your share, dammit!  I think the other point was the idea that in order to achieve happiness one first must do some worrying.  The problem is, we never get past the worrying.  

Of course there is guilt.  Don't forget the guilt.  How can we be happy?  There is no hope for happiness if there is worry and guilt.  One strategy suggested for worry relief is to write down the worries on a "worry sheet". Then put off worrying about them until a later time.  I think one of my main worries is that there is something I should be worrying about, but I'm missing it altogether.  That's both good and bad.  Hypnosis teaches that forgiveness erases Guilt and Fear.  You must forgive yourself also in this process.  Many turn to drugs for this in the short term.  We know the problems associated with that. I remember Emma getting some worry dolls from Gloria, her Grandmother, when she was about 6years old. I think you would put a worry doll under your pillow for each worry you had and that would take it away, or something.  I know Emma liked those little dolls.  There are also worry beads. I don't know how to use them.  Maybe I should open a worry shop in Fenton.  The new age coffee shop idea was shot down. 

I know one thing, I always feel better about things when I write a blog.  I might feel a little guilty if I think it's a bad blog.  Thanks for reading my vent.
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